Palm Sunday

I feel ashamed of the confession I’m about to release. I’ve never been one to observe Palm Sunday, Passover and Easter. Not that I ignored it and pushed it out of existence in my life, but because when I was eleven years old, my middle brother who was seventeen years old at the time, drowned on Easter Sunday, April 22, 1973. It was a tragedy that changed my family’s life instantly and ever since, Easter has always been a reminder of that dreadful day to me. Today isn’t Easter but it’s coming and I’ve already begun that familiar mental reenactment. But I have asked God to help me and give me strength to remember the real meaning of these days and so far He has been faithful in helping me.

At 3:30 this morning, God woke me from my sleep, yet again. Seemingly, it’s becoming a thing between He and I. But quite honestly, I am digging this bond between us and look forward to His revelations He shares with me. Maybe I should just stay up and save Him the trouble, but what fun is that? After awaking me, He took me to Zechariah 9:9. If you know anything about the Bible, you know that Zechariah is part of the Twelve Minor Prophets. Chapter 9 verse 9 reads; “Rejoice greatly, O daughter of Zion! Shout aloud O daughter of Jerusalem! Behold, your King is coming to you; righteous and having salvation is he, humble and mounted on a donkey, on a colt, the foal of a donkey.”

To many, this may not seem much, but to me, it means everything. When Jesus went into Jerusalem, He usually went to celebrate the feasts and He visited quite often. But His last visit was paramount and had/has a very special meaning attached to it. Early this morning, God showed me the fronds of a palm tree. In what I was seeing, I saw many hands waving these branches which was a mark of the people rejoicing and then laying them on the street as if a red carpet was being rolled out before Jesus as He rode in. People were shouting loudly, “Hosanna!” In the Bible days, war waging kings arrived on horses but Jesus asked His disciples to get Him a donkey. He was not riding into Jerusalem to wage war or as a war hero, He was coming in as a humble King of peace. Jesus was being celebrated by the people for raising Lazarus from the dead therefore hailing Him King of the Jews.

I began to question God and try to understand what He wanted me to understand to the best of my understanding but that’s when I din’t hear from Him again. sometimes I become frustrated when He leaves me hanging like that, but I have learned from these experiences before, that He gave me a mind to think for myself and that what I needed to know would soon be understood.

I asked myself, “what if Jesus was riding into my city? What would I do? What if He came now during this plague our world is facing, what would I do? Tears filled my eyes because firstly the donkey to me and by nature is a stubborn animal like most of us humans are which is why the word “jackass” is a popular name some call each other, which is also another name for a donkey. I thought about Jesus going into Jerusalem on this final time. It was near the end of Israel’s 400 years of slavery in Egypt. It also commemorates the date the Israelite’s past through the Red Sea when God redeemed them from slavery meaning that during Passover which we are in now, has always represented a transformative event and is celebrated every year. Also, this was Christ’s final week of life on earth as He was about to face unheard suffering, crucifixion, then resurrection. I still could not come up with something substantial to what God was teaching me.

I continued to dwell on the events of Christ during that time and I thought about the plagues during Passover. The last and final plague was the most disturbing and shows that God gets our attention one way or another. Plagues were sent to the land of Egypt because of their great sins especially their worship of creation rather than the Creator. God is firm when He says. we must not have any other Gods before Him. God made clear He alone IS GOD! I went through the plagues, the Nile River being turned into blood, frogs filling the land. Masses of gnats, flies swarming over the people and just one fly is enough to drive you nuts. Then the disease of the farm animals and people breaking out in boils and blisters. The sky became black as it was filled with locusts and it became dark for three days, the worst storm ever in Egypt.

God was giving the people ample time to listen to Him, some did but Pharaoh refused. So God was about to unleash the most dreaded plague of all after Moses gave His last and final warning. I cannot imagine the hearts of the parents who were about to face their biggest nightmare. The final plague would bring Egypt to her Knees and bring chaos they had never known. God was about to judge the Egyptians by sending the death angels throughout that land to take the lives of every firstborn human and animal. The Israelite’s were instructed to slaughter a lamb that evening and paint the post of the door above and on the sides with the lamb’s blood. If the angels passed by and the blood was not applied, the firstborn would die. That night, wailing was heard throughout Egypt.

It hit me! Here we are in the middle of the worst event we’ve ever faced, not just in America, but globally. We refused to listen to God in the past. We’ve taken Him out of everything and deemed him a mere fable. This Passover, Jesus is among us and He has entered with His peace that passes all understanding He comes humbly to remind us that our Father God comes to bring judgement for our great sins. But God is merciful and will extend mercy to those who believe as He extended mercy to the Israelites. This Covid-19 is serious! Within it are not only sickness and death, but forced business closures and financial markets coming to a halt and an unprecedented panic. I do not want to presume God’s intention at all during our time of distress, but I read between the lines. Murdered babies, sexual preferences not ordained by God we have replaced God’s word with our own word making everything acceptable and making it legal and right. God has EVERY right to judge mankind, His own creation. I believe God is showing me that we should ready ourselves for Him to transform us from our old ways of being.

God is merciful and God is still in control! He is with us and I believe He will clean up the hearts of man. This is personal to me because of the situation I am in at the moment. So, what would I do if I saw Jesus riding into my city? I don’t have palm branches, but I do have my two arms and I would run to Him and shout, Hosanna , Blessed is the one who comes in the name of the Lord! I would find my own donkey and without arrogance spread the gospel of Christ with humility in service to God. Therefore, I now understand what I was supposed to understand, this is not about us at all. It’s about the One who created us and He will clean His planet from everything ugly and impure. He is just to give us this time to rest and to think about what life is really about. We always resort back to our given ability to love and help one another. He is taking away that which has taken over our lives and destroyed families and bringing restoration. The transformation is coming…..

Random “Lock down” Thoughts

It’s Friday, April 3rd, 2020. A lot has happened this week alone. This pandemic has altered so much of our lives in so many ways. Nothing seems to fit anymore and it’s going to take some getting use to. It feels like life has been put on hold and I am just sitting here awaiting instructions to the next phase. It is really sad actually, and these four walls seem to know me very well by now. At times, it feels as if they are slowly closing in on me or worse it feels like a cage. It even feels like a lockdown within a lockdown whatever that is suppose to mean.

Still, there are those who are not obeying the corona laws and for that reason the police put up barricades at ends of roads to check your license and ask for a permission slip from your job meaning that is the only reason you can be out at night, coming from or going to your place of work. The Stimulus package has yet to be given to any of us after finally getting it passed. Many are without jobs, now money. We can’t sell because no one is buying and we can’t buy without the funds being available. I have had to lay aside my pride and apply for food stamps but now our State has claimed there aren’t enough funds in the bucket to help everyone in need.

It’s grim and growing worse by the day. However, I am thankful, beyond thankful, that a miracle happened to me this week which I explained in my last blog. It’s keeping us afloat for now. But I am not losing hope. I dare not lose hope. It keeps joy inside my soul. However, these uncertainties are growing daily multiplying faster than we can try to solve. There is rumor of another strain of this virus leaking out. But there have been mounds of rumors and we just sit and wait for anything remotely good to come our way, and I am believing it will. In the mean time, it really isn’t impossible to live under this lock-down law not for me anyway because my kids are grown and married and I cannot imagine being locked down with little ones who can’t go out. I am pretty sure they would be bouncing off the walls and I guess i would be too.

I do stay busy reading, quilling and playing with my cats. Let’s see, there is Anubis, Gray-boy, Lilly and Leo who are the indoor cats, then Shakespeare, and Velvet who demand being outside and they all are my pride and joy and each has their own personality which makes it very interesting at times. I do not watch much TV unless I watch something on YouTube being that TV is not fit to watch anymore. I especially love watching Jeremy Wade. I wonder if he is married? (scratches her head and hopes he is not.) I have this new-found crush on him and that British accent, well you get the drift. However, he is very entertaining, brave and keeps my mind off of the negative things that fight for my attention.

I will close now. I have some art I need to work on. My prayers are for our world.

Be blessed!

P.S. My eyes filled with tears as I closed my blog all while trying to swallow that lump that seems to want to stay right there in my throat. Please be safe !!!

A Ray Of Miracle

This crisis we are in is on a mass scale and life will never be the same again. It will reorder our society to rearrange itself either for the better or worse. So far, the financial crisis has taken its toll and we are doing things we never thought we would have to do. I’ve already mentioned about our business taking a huge hit in the last blog and it’s been devastating to my family. But we are resilient and will bounce back maybe not like we were before, because things will be different, but we will adapt to whatever is needed to be adapted to to make it. People are already separated from their jobs and friends, and that alone is shaking up our economy.

Today, I have two stories to share with you from yesterday’s events. I got out yesterday for the first time and went into a public place. I’ve been faithful to stay home and self quarantine with exceptions visiting in my back yard and hiking the woods. But, we needed groceries and I had no choice but to go. Everyone seemed spaced out, kind of like a zombic outbreak. They looked dazed and would not make eye contact, perhaps exhausted from the worries and burdens we have been forced to carry. No one was smiling and I suppose I wasn’t either. I tried to make eye contact so I could project a smile into their lives, but it was like a scene from a horror movie and everyone was in a different space and time. I went about getting the things I needed being very careful not to hoard. The shelves were being stocked, but food was flying off the shelves just as quick.

On my way home, my phone start going off from an emergency alert that had just been issued. The warning was that tomorrow, a state wide lock down would take place at 5:00. My heart skipped a beat only because it felt weird and so surreal. Today, my oldest son called the City Council to complain about stores price gouging and people roaming the streets as if nothing was happening. The Council told my son that today, April 1st, 2020 at 5:00 p.m. our State would enforce a State wide lock down. Just something about those words is entirely unsettling and it hit me hard and I thought, this is it. This is very real. My mind began to race about what will come next. However, my faith and trust in God is strong and even though we all are facing these strange moments it’s human nature to wonder and be curious. It’s not a lack of faith or trust. It’s reality and we must adhere to it. I just pray my people will obey the laws of the land, the new laws and just stay inside and be safe.

Now, I guess you are wondering about the title of this blog and what miracle I might be talking about. Yesterday before going to the grocery store, I called my bank about transferring the $2.73 to my new account that only had $0.69 cents in it. I had that money in my old account that was fraudulently hit and had to be shut down back in February. It’s not much money at all, but it’s something. After the lady was looking through my accounts, she saw something. She was looking at a savings account and told me she saw where there was $500.00 on the ledger account. I stopped her and told her I did not have a savings account, she then put me on hold, then came back and said I have good news for you.

In my mind I began to think about the scripture in the Bible where it says in Psalms 37:25, “I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging for bread.” She began telling me that over a year ago, I had signed up for a savings that I had totally forgotten about. But I had never put money into it, but she continued saying that the interest accrued and left me with exactly $500.00. She said, “Miss Jane, looks like someone has His angels watching over you.” I became so excited and could not contain the well of tears that flooded my face. I could not speak. She then told me that it is legit and there is $500.00 siting in your savings and with my permission she was going to transfer it to my checking. I did not think twice. We both laughed, we both cried. I told her she was the angel God sent. $500.00 may not seem like much to some as it did not for me over a month ago before my business was hit, but now, it is a huge bag of wealth and that is how I got to go to the grocery store.

I have still been trying to figure out where that money came from. There was only one penny put in there by the bank when I had opened the account a year ago. I really don’t see how interest could have grown that much in a year, but God has reminded me, “that those who wait upon the Lord they shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles and soar. They will walk and not grow weary , they shall run and not grow faint.” (Isaiah 40:31)That’s exactly how I felt yesterday after hearing this good news. My spirit within me wanted to soar and I might have danced a little by the overwhelming news, but it was indeed a miracle. I kept almost half for myself, and gave the rest to someone in need. I am not pinning roses on myself, but I feel strongly we are to come together in this time and help one another. God blessed me with a beautiful peace and reassured me that He will never leave me nor forsake me. I could not keep this to myself, I had to share.

Be blessed and be safe…